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I've completed the second draft of The Blood Crown manuscript. I sent it along to ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
gunslingaaahhh and copied myself, so it'll be safe and sound in the event my computer goes kersplat (::knocks wood in fright::). I called her a hosebeast in the email, which I'm sure will endear me to her even more than I already have.
This manuscript contains approximately 30,000 words of an extremely personal and agonising writing on my part. I just hope that what happened during the Summer of Sam pulls the same kinds of emotions from people that it did from me. I still can't thankgunslingaaahhh and luvthyjoker enough for their input and support during that time last year. I really believe that Tish's misunderstanding of what was going on with me creatively is what made her pull away from me and allude to acook and scottmcclure that I was crazy. I lost friends because of this particular manuscript, but I found out who my real friends were. It's important to know that.
"The Sainted Confessor" will always bring me great happiness, pain, and melancholia. Creating something shouldn't have to be like this, but it often is, especially if you're whatgunslingaaahhh calls a method writer. It's not the happiest of places to be, but it can be oh-so-very glorious when it works well. There are some significant portions of The Blood Crown with which I'm more than a little happy.
The book is written, but my desire to try to make things right, to not be so "crazy" while I was in my creative zone, drags me down to this day. The ache of how things happened will quite possibly wrap around me like a wet sheet and sink into my skin, forever a part of me.
gunslingaaahhh and copied myself, so it'll be safe and sound in the event my computer goes kersplat (::knocks wood in fright::). I called her a hosebeast in the email, which I'm sure will endear me to her even more than I already have.This manuscript contains approximately 30,000 words of an extremely personal and agonising writing on my part. I just hope that what happened during the Summer of Sam pulls the same kinds of emotions from people that it did from me. I still can't thank
gunslingaaahhh and luvthyjoker enough for their input and support during that time last year. I really believe that Tish's misunderstanding of what was going on with me creatively is what made her pull away from me and allude to acook and scottmcclure that I was crazy. I lost friends because of this particular manuscript, but I found out who my real friends were. It's important to know that."The Sainted Confessor" will always bring me great happiness, pain, and melancholia. Creating something shouldn't have to be like this, but it often is, especially if you're what
gunslingaaahhh calls a method writer. It's not the happiest of places to be, but it can be oh-so-very glorious when it works well. There are some significant portions of The Blood Crown with which I'm more than a little happy. The book is written, but my desire to try to make things right, to not be so "crazy" while I was in my creative zone, drags me down to this day. The ache of how things happened will quite possibly wrap around me like a wet sheet and sink into my skin, forever a part of me.
