Cadmus in Therapy

[tinhuvielartanis]

My therapist tried to push me into talking about the main character in my book as an extension of myself, a sort of animus, or an expression of aspects of my personality. I clammed up. Cadmus is a murderer, rapist, and cannibal. I claim him as my demon child, but I think it's going a bit far to see him as me in written form. Sure there are aspects of me there, just as there are aspects of other people I know. That's the way all the characters in The Vampire Relics are. I'm not sure I'm very comfortable with where Rosa was trying to go with this. She keeps telling me I'm a difficult case, that I fit (partially) into maybe one half of a percent of the population, so I can understand her grasping at straws and trying to get an idea of how to treat me.

A psychic pretty much said the same thing when he couldn't "read" me. He said I had massive walls that blocked everyone out. I don't see it. My life is pretty much an open book. Hell, I write most everything down here on the Cliffs. He didn't try to prod into Cadmus' dark world though. I hope Rosa doesn't push the Cadmus issue because I really don't want to tell her about him. If she's that curious, I'll let her read The Chalice when it comes out. Otherwise, just leave me alone.