I've felt the presence of Cadmus with me for days now. It's like he's resentful that I wrote a piece that featured his death. He doesn't want to die and he's fairly pissed at me. It's almost like, every time I turn around, he's sitting or standing right there, looking at me with those vast eyes, reproach spilling off him in waves. It's unsettling. Well...it's more unsettling than usual when it comes to dealing with Cadmus Pariah. The last time he was this present was when I was on my way to England and the night we were in London. I finally succumbed to his pressure by writing a wee bauble for
fakenna.
I'm not sure if his enhanced presence is a good or bad thing. My initial belief is that it's bad, but that's only because I'm a big chicken.
Maybe it has something to do with the agent I wrote a month ago. Her blurb stated that she "responds in two weeks to queries." I haven't heard anything. Is this a good sign? A bad sign? Should I write a follow-up query? I don't know, I just don't know! I'd like to think that she has read The Chalice, or is in the process of reading it, and she's so impressed that she's waiting to contact me after she's gotten me a book deal. But I'm smarter, and more cynical, than that. I'm thinking that she's so unimpressed, I'll never hear from her. Damn! Why can't anything just be simple?
And why can't Cadmus just leave me in peace, just for one day?
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I'm not sure if his enhanced presence is a good or bad thing. My initial belief is that it's bad, but that's only because I'm a big chicken.
Maybe it has something to do with the agent I wrote a month ago. Her blurb stated that she "responds in two weeks to queries." I haven't heard anything. Is this a good sign? A bad sign? Should I write a follow-up query? I don't know, I just don't know! I'd like to think that she has read The Chalice, or is in the process of reading it, and she's so impressed that she's waiting to contact me after she's gotten me a book deal. But I'm smarter, and more cynical, than that. I'm thinking that she's so unimpressed, I'll never hear from her. Damn! Why can't anything just be simple?
And why can't Cadmus just leave me in peace, just for one day?