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Oct. 2nd, 2003
That's all my brain can handle at the mo.
Back at work after having about 4 hours sleep. My body is buzzing from weariness.
Right before we headed for the hospital yesterday, Louise called from Florida to let us know that Felice is back in the hospital down in Delray Beach. Fluid was gathering around her heart and she was unable to breathe properly, so the docs had to go in and do another surgery (unclear on what as Louise didn't say). Now Felice is hooked up to a bunch of machines and everyone is waiting to see if the fluid is gone for good. Of course, Louise had to interject that she thinks Felice waited "too long to contact the doctor", implying that she might not make it. Until either Aunt Tudi or I can actually talk to Felice, I'm not going to be overly alarmed since I've found that Louise enjoys expanding reality regarding situations that cause people pain or strife.
When I got home last night, there was a message from![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sri3m. She was needing to talk to a friend because someone to whom she's quite close was in the hospital having a possiblly cancerous kidney removed and there was a chance he might not make it. It was too late to try to call her back, seeing as how it was around midnight. I'll try today if I get the chance.
It never rains without pouring...
I'm going to see Llew right after work, although I may not stay into the late evening. He's now being well taken care of by professionals who know what they're doing. When it comes to injuries like this, love and good intentions just aren't enough. He looks so bad and I can feel the pain coming from the expression in his eyes. I just want to gather him up and hold him until it all just goes away.
Ideally, I wish that I could put Llew and myself in a big invisible, impervious bubble wherein we could dwell in perfect contentment and safety. Even though I know that will never happen, it doesn't stop me from desperately desiring such a state of existence. I knew I loved him, but seeing him like this makes me realise how truly devoted I am to him. Nothing brings folks closer together better than severe bodily injuries.
I had a dream last night I'm going to reserve for a separate post because it just doesn't belong here.
Back at work after having about 4 hours sleep. My body is buzzing from weariness.
Right before we headed for the hospital yesterday, Louise called from Florida to let us know that Felice is back in the hospital down in Delray Beach. Fluid was gathering around her heart and she was unable to breathe properly, so the docs had to go in and do another surgery (unclear on what as Louise didn't say). Now Felice is hooked up to a bunch of machines and everyone is waiting to see if the fluid is gone for good. Of course, Louise had to interject that she thinks Felice waited "too long to contact the doctor", implying that she might not make it. Until either Aunt Tudi or I can actually talk to Felice, I'm not going to be overly alarmed since I've found that Louise enjoys expanding reality regarding situations that cause people pain or strife.
When I got home last night, there was a message from
sri3m. She was needing to talk to a friend because someone to whom she's quite close was in the hospital having a possiblly cancerous kidney removed and there was a chance he might not make it. It was too late to try to call her back, seeing as how it was around midnight. I'll try today if I get the chance.It never rains without pouring...
I'm going to see Llew right after work, although I may not stay into the late evening. He's now being well taken care of by professionals who know what they're doing. When it comes to injuries like this, love and good intentions just aren't enough. He looks so bad and I can feel the pain coming from the expression in his eyes. I just want to gather him up and hold him until it all just goes away.
Ideally, I wish that I could put Llew and myself in a big invisible, impervious bubble wherein we could dwell in perfect contentment and safety. Even though I know that will never happen, it doesn't stop me from desperately desiring such a state of existence. I knew I loved him, but seeing him like this makes me realise how truly devoted I am to him. Nothing brings folks closer together better than severe bodily injuries.
I had a dream last night I'm going to reserve for a separate post because it just doesn't belong here.
Time Travel
Oct. 2nd, 2003 08:02 amSo I had this dream in the short span of time in which I was allowed to sleep. I dreamt that I was part of an experiment to test out a new time travel device. It was like one of those bubble ships that divers sometimes use for deep sea diving and made almost completely of unbreakable glass.
The concept was that we would travel fast enough around the Earth that time would begin to warp. There was me and two other people, I think. We stood in this vessel and it started to float and move forward. It went faster and faster, so fast that it was like we ended up standing still and the world just rushed by us.
After a while of this, I said, "This isn't working. We're just spinning around the globe." But I was wrong. Suddenly we zoomed up to this vast ancient church that began to metamorphisize from one structure to another as time progressed. It was a church, then a great temple, a very tall structure with high spires, a gothic metal building that looked like it was comprised solely of rockets and bombs, a stone temple with a massive Horn of Isis crowning the entrance way, and on and on it went. I started thinking that this wasn't past incarnations, this was the future. As soon as I thought that in my dream, the structure changed again to the unbelievably huge building, part pyramid, part spire, part stone circle. It was like this one building was the embodiment of all past human faith.
Then I saw, dancing on one of the flat surfaces of the temple, two beings. They were featureless and made totally of blue liquid light. I realised that these people were humans in the future and that their dance, very tribal in nature, was a dance of worship. Even though we were going to evolve beyond anything we can currently conceive, it was as though we had embraced and maintained a very shamanic method of connecting to Spirit.
All of this seemed so real to me. So real, in fact, that I debate on whether or not it was an astral experience.
The concept was that we would travel fast enough around the Earth that time would begin to warp. There was me and two other people, I think. We stood in this vessel and it started to float and move forward. It went faster and faster, so fast that it was like we ended up standing still and the world just rushed by us.
After a while of this, I said, "This isn't working. We're just spinning around the globe." But I was wrong. Suddenly we zoomed up to this vast ancient church that began to metamorphisize from one structure to another as time progressed. It was a church, then a great temple, a very tall structure with high spires, a gothic metal building that looked like it was comprised solely of rockets and bombs, a stone temple with a massive Horn of Isis crowning the entrance way, and on and on it went. I started thinking that this wasn't past incarnations, this was the future. As soon as I thought that in my dream, the structure changed again to the unbelievably huge building, part pyramid, part spire, part stone circle. It was like this one building was the embodiment of all past human faith.
Then I saw, dancing on one of the flat surfaces of the temple, two beings. They were featureless and made totally of blue liquid light. I realised that these people were humans in the future and that their dance, very tribal in nature, was a dance of worship. Even though we were going to evolve beyond anything we can currently conceive, it was as though we had embraced and maintained a very shamanic method of connecting to Spirit.
All of this seemed so real to me. So real, in fact, that I debate on whether or not it was an astral experience.