As a regular reader of your lj, might I suggest that your happier days really are mixing with your cynical and darker days (in your actual life), and so this is a very apt (and potentially instructive)synchronicity?

A person in touch with their dark side may not want to hear happy music all the time, but when they do, there's nothing wrong in that -- and you want something that isn't vacuous and brain-numbing.

I used to play English Settlement lots and lots because it made me feel happy.